In Between

In Between

I am sitting here,
Feeling like half a person.
Can only express half my truth.
I chose to, but I don’t like it.

I am scared that the full truth,
Will be the end.
And so half of me enjoys this dream,
The other half whispers,
words that sound like the truth.
Could be a lie.
Could be a fear.
Either way they strangle me.

How long can I be without oxygen?
I ask myself.
How long can I endure this?
I know the answer.
The fear so big I’d rather
Suffocate myself
Than face my truth.